I'm really missing home today. I guess it's because I am making myself feel overwhelmed for no reason at all. I have all my work planned out, events planned out, plans planned out. But maybe that's why I'm stressing out - because everything in my life seems to be planned. Everything I do must be a routine. Wake up, eat breakfast, go to class, workout, eat, study, sleep. Every single day. Sometimes I wonder if that's the reason I'm so miserable here. But then I think I would probably be miserable without a schedule too. In the end, my misery is probably just from wanting to come home.
My best friend Aurora is visiting her prospective colleges this week. A few days ago, she visited Indiana University and she really liked it. She gives it a 8/10, which is quite promising for a college visit. Right now, she's at Oregon University. Connor goes there and he took them out last night. I'm still waiting to hear all about their night. I hope she will know soon where she wants to be. Watching people now make choices about their college makes me anxious. Maybe because for me my choice didn't work out as planned. I worry and don't want people that I care about to experience the same kind of ordeal as I have. I don't want anyone too. Everyday becomes a drag.
I have this weird thing for cute workout clothes right now. Motivation? I think yes.
Time to write one of the last RN212 responses ever....thank goodness.
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